House Mates, Toddlers and Heartbreak

So we had moved in a friend of mine from my husbands old hometown and once again left with the short end of the stick...
I HATE FACEBOOK! She is posting I "abused" her and treated her like a slave! WTH! If she was treated like a slave, I would be happy to change positions with her.


I know that I am hard to live with, I don't deny that one bit. I was upfront and told her to live here RENT FREE and given food you have to help me with the children and help me clean the house.

I moved her upstairs. It was not finished when she moved up here and she moved a friend in with us to help with that... 4 months later and guess what I am having to do.  Hire someone to finish my upstairs. UGH! So the drywall was hung and I bought all the materials. It just needs to be finished up.
So after a major clean up, picking up cat poo and throwing away perfectly good furniture I am furious.
What makes this worse is that she's playing the victim. Really?!?!
There was a quote on a white board at school it read:

Facts are Negotiable

Perceptions are not...

Makes total sense, given the situation. Her "perception" is that I abused her by expecting the house to be cleaned after I worked a 12 hour day. I expect their to be dinner ready due to the fact, I bought the groceries.  I expect my things to be in place where I left them that morning before I went to work...

If you were a babysitter you wouldn't allow that sitter to stay if she allowed your children to rampage throught the house and destroy everything in their little paths, right?

Not only did my lovely toddlers get into my room they managed to grab my collectables from a shelf in my room and hide them in their room. When I asked her about this I was told, "I watched them the whole time, that's why the house isn't cleaned." DO WHAT!!!!! 

So 2 bags of chips are GONE. Pizza left overs on the counter and I asked her if she made dinner and she told me that, "Me and the boys had pizza." The boys and I had pizza! UGH 

That next week I had to DEMAND that she take a shower... Really, why do I have to do more than ask. One time my husband got up and sprayed down the chair she was sitting in, in hopes to save our furniture. He even told her you have to shower everyday. She got a little hurt over that too. 

Her cat... oh her cat, she wanted to help this cat have her kittens.  Then dumped this poor cat on me.  This cat HATES my dog, attacked him a few times. This brings me back to Layla...sweet Layla, I loathed that dog.  Not because of the dog but because of the owner. I cannot stand someone who gets a dog and does not train it at all! Then refuses to take care of the thing. If it wasn't for me and a friend that dog would have starved.  She applied to several jobs when she first got here. Then she gave up. So  that left me to take care of this animal. Not to mention after I had to get up at 3 and 4 am several morning I tied her up to a tree.  I was tired of hearing this dog cry and bark and waking me and the toddlers up.  

She left for the weekend and I started cleaning, this is when I found the upstairs to smelling horrible, and cat poo everywhere. Piles of clothes here and there. It was a mess.  MY BED smelled. Thank you Jesus for OdoBan. I was just done! Done with the "I can'ts" done with the "my back hurts" done with "I won't go to the doctor" Just DONE! 

I wasn't going to put up with it anymore. She worked 5 hours a day and still came home and sat down and watched TEEN MOM! She's 26 you are no longer a "teen" she would help with dishes but that is where it stoped.  She would constantly take selfies and was on her phone on POF. If you never look up from your phone you will NEVER find someone.  

Speaking of that phone, One night I was watching "Once Upon A Time" and that stupid thing went off every 15 seconds. Several times in a row. I asked her if she minded and she laughed! Laughed at me, and told me it was someone on POF! And your point, turn it down or off.  One night she made my husband so mad he turned the tv up as loud as it went and she got mad at him and went to her room.  

So I told her when I got paid on the 15th I would give her some money for helping with the boys, at least they didn't burn down the house. However she didn't wait till the 15th.  When I told her I was really pissed off that when I went upstairs to get into the closet it SMELLED so bad and that I found cat poo all around the room and the litter box was terrible, it was too much for her to handle.  

She blocked me from Facebook and started unloading her dirty laundry. Telling everyone that I yelled at her. Uh yeah when your fail to have common sense, and you treat me like crap. You bet your butt I'm going to yell. I have bent over backwards trying to help her better herself but she refused. 

So if you are one of her friends and reading this, you can ask my neighbor and ask people around me what was going on.  Their is 3 sides to every story and you will Never know the whole truth because you weren't there to see the day to day actions and reactions. 

I will end on this, my boys and I have a long road to recovery because of this.  My little doesn't trust me right now and it will take some time, but the most heartbreaking thing out of all of this is not that she left my child ALONE for 2 hours but the fact my 4 year old asked me if she was mad at him... 

This is not cool. I hugged him and told him no she was mad at me, why because I am the Mom and I will do what I can to take the hurt away.  My children should have never been hurt in this, and because of this I will live alone for a long time. 

Back to posting again...

SO a lot has happened since my last post. Now I will be able to post a little more.  We moved our little family to Texas. We love it here.  A lot less drama and really good people.

So I went back to work had some great friends help me with the boys while I worked. I've changed jobs and went to the oilfield while my husband was a stay at home dad for a while.
Made a little money and helped get the house sold in Louisiana. Now we are about to buy a new home but in the mean time we are staying in a single wide trailer until we find the right one.

Now I'm doing a job closer to home until my husbands license gets straitened out. I am able to be home everyday and the boys are enjoying that.  My oldest is doing great he's 3 years old now and is smart as a whip.
My youngest whos 2 just started talking and almost potty trained. So excited.

So now brings me onto my side hobby. I have picked my hooks back up and I'm crocheting like crazy.

I have 2 days off a week and tons of yarn so lets begin.

Our Church

So I don't normally post things like this but today I went to fill in a hole at church. The church was built on an old homestead and the well was not properly sealed off. So I filled up the back of the truck with buckets of dirt and go up there to start filing it in. I finally get the tailgate down, which was stuck. I get 3 buckets unloaded and I felt the Lords presence, I didn' t care if I looked like a nut or not but I feel to my knees and just prayed. Prayed and told God I was thankful for everything and please let life will get better. Most of you know last year was really rough on us. Lots of bed rest with being pregnant with William, then Jeremy lost his job... he's working again and has his licence again but it just been difficult this year. Pray for my family and we are always praying for you.

Weight Loss Not Going so Good!

We have all been very sick around here.  Jeremy has been sick for 3 weeks.  The kids and I started feeling better Sunday evening.  I hate that Jeremy is still sick! This diabetes is really kicking his butt.

So I have not been able to work out everyday due to our sickness.  I am hoping that I will be able to start back in a few days.  I worked out yesterday and the day before and I'm starting to get woosie afterwards like my sugar is too low.  So I have Jeremy's extra meter and I'm going to start taking my sugar after workouts if this continues.

I'm also making another small change to my workout.  I'm going to start getting up early to do my workout so that when the kids are down for their nap I can clean and do laundry.

I'm doing my Dance games so if anyone is wondering.  When I first started I lost quite a bit but I didn't keep up my diet after I got sick.  I didn't take my soda out during the first because I'm trying a few things.  However this go around I'm only going to allow my self 1 can a day.  I have to have my caffeine and I'm not ready for coffee yet.  I have never been a fan of coffee but I am kinda liking the dunken donuts coffee I'm trying now.

So other than that I'm trying to get my scheduled of things going.  I'm thinking of Vlogging bc it might be easier.  I want to record my weight loss and let people know that if I can do it they can too.  I know it is a hard battle but you have to get up and do it.

So hopefully next week I will know what I'm doing.  I kind of like typing but it takes a while to do it.

Weigh in.

Got up this morning and here we go its Friday.  Now my weight is 240 lbs so from 6 week post partum that is 16 lbs. Yay!  So keep dancing fat girl and we will see next week.

Weight Loss...

So trucker for 6 years and 2 babies later I have gained a lot weight.  I will do official weigh in next Friday but when I left the doctors office at Williams 6 week old mark I weighed 256 lbs.  I started playing Dance Central on Xbox and I feel the burn.

High School I weighed 125 lbs I was a size 12 and ran everyday. This was taken in 2002 the year I graduated.

 And here I am just a few weeks ago.  So I need help, support and strength to lose this weight! I don't expect to be 125 lbs again but to get to 160 would be great.  Please help support me in this challenge.  My first goal has been met that is to get up and do something about it.  My second goal is only 1 soda a week! I have to cut the sugar out and start cooking right.  

I promise to post at least once a week and hopefully I can successfully lose weight.  

Nutella Brownies WHAT?!?!?

You Add 1 cup of Nutella

10 tablespoons of flour

2 eggs

mix all in a bowl

Put them in the oven at 350 for about 20 mins ( may need more time if you cook it non-cupcake form)

and I didn't even get a picture after they were done they were that good.  

My son kept stealing them off the counter so you know they were that good.  

21g of sugar so not too bad for a diabetic.  

5 Dennis'

So it's been a while as usual.  We have a date set for the c-section.  It will be Aug 3rd unless the baby decides to come earlier.  We still don't know the sex but Jeremy is one happy Daddy.

I will be writing on here more due to our other new addition to the family.  We adopted a cockatiel.  A little boy named Rio.  He is about a year old and it takes a lot of time and trust on my part and his to tame them.  My mother has 3 of them one of which was mine till my ex and I split and due to the nature of a tiel I didn't push the issue of getting her back.  When I found this one I fell in love with it immediately.  Jeremy loves it too and we think we have found the perfect pet for us.  Dogs are not it anymore.  Ever since we lost Toby it has been hard for me to find another dog.
     Slowly we have been cleaning our home.  So much stuff to go through and get rid of.  I've narrowed alot of my things down.  Jeremy has done the same.

Chicken Penne Gorgonzola

OMG I have been wanting this for the longest time but I don't like waiting till I go to Oklahoma to get it.  This is a little different than Johnny's Carinos but OMG just as good. I believe the put mushrooms in their's but I put broccoli in mine.  I'm waiting on big daddy to get off work to let him try it but we have more time.  I'm going to take it with me and let him eat it at the open field on the way from work so we can watch the stars tonight.  

I made my own cream sauce from milk, butter, garlic, and flour.  No heavy cream so less fatty.  Next time I'm going to try whole grain pasta.  

I've been feeling horrible. Headaches again! Kamden doesn't feel good bc of his ears but that will be solved soon.  I'm so scared for him to go into surgery, but I know it's for the best for him.  

Surgery is on May 8th at 730 am I just hope and pray everything goes ok. 

Tubes...

So we are putting tubes in Kamden's ears on May 8th.  We seen the ENT yesterday and he thinks that between 4 ear infections and fluid always on his ears that he really needs them.  I'm really sad that my baby will be put under and tubes put in, but I'm happy to know my baby won't be hurting anymore.  His ears are hurting him tonight I'm hoping he will be able to sleep after I put in the numbing drops I put in his ears.

Happy Birthday!

 Our little boy turned 1! I was trying not to expect anything out of him with his cake but he took the bait! Such a messy child! All it took was one bite and he was sunk.  We tried to keep the party short but that didn't work.  Poor kid was getting so sleepy so I had to hurry get a cupcake and slap a candle in it before he passed out.  Sure enough the sugar gave him a bit of energy to finish it at least then he was done!
He recieved some great gifts thank you again to everyone that sent something you should receiving your Thank You cards soon. Jeremy and I are trying to recoup a little it took a lot out of us and Kamden is still running strong.

 I will buy my cakes at Sam's Club from now on. 36.00 for this monster! We are still eating on cake 4 days later! It was a nice cake and was so soft.

 Cake Face!!!!!

Outside decorations!
Please excuse the pain mess we have hired a professional that PROMISED to finish painting then the house will look a lot better.

Well on a different note I am not ready for tomorrow.  We are not feeling well here and Kamden has to get 1 year old shots :(  So not ready for this.  I am preparing myself for the fight I am armed with meds and freshly washed wash rags so we can keep any temp down!

Faux Canvas

 So this Faux-canvas for cheap people.

The Materials needed:

Mod-Podge (matte finish)
foam board
4 x 6 photos
ribbon 3/8ths but it was a little wide for this project.

1. you will put mod-podge on your foam board and apply photo.
2. Then apply mod-podge to you photo.  Yes it will look like its going to dry whitish over your photo, do not worry it will magical turn clear.
Allow dry time I gave mine an hour........
3. Carefully use a box knife to cut out you photo.
4.  Use small amounts of hot glue to edge and apply your ribbon.
6. Put a slight bend in you soda pop tab.
5.  Take a soda pop tab and apply a good drop of hot glue to the back of you photo and apply tab.

Place on a nail.  It looks beautiful! No need to buy expensive picture frames anymore.

Bed Rest!

I was ordered to take it easier.  I'm having a lot of pain and I have been really sick.  I have no appetite at all! Pregnancy #2 is hell! Thankfully I have some help this week, getting some stuff done before little mans #1! I'm so excited for this party.  We have to order the cake next week and get some cupcakes.  Dollar store for decorations and sams for the hamburger patties and hot dogs!

Friends!

Well Kamden is almost 1... Wow how time goes by! He's got 3 teeth, he's almost as tall as my friends 3 year old. He is 22 lbs and still growing. I can't wait to have our second and child. Then our family will be complete. I never knew one child could make two people so happy. Sure he'll get older and he will do stupid stuff. He will always know that we love him no matter what.

We haven't been feeling too well around here. We have been trying to clean up the house and get the chickens ready to go. We have 30 eggs in the incubator and 10 baby chicks outside.

Just been running in a rut and I think it's time we get out of town for a day or two. Maybe soon. Maybe is cabin fever or whatever just seems so gloomy here. People are dying and I don't know if I can handle another phone call. But that little smile! That keeps me going. I really hate it here sometimes. I just wish I had a friend that was HERE that wasn't judgemental! I hate it when people act that way toward me. My decisions are my decisions and it doesn't matter if you like them or not. Just be a friend and hang out. Let me vent (not saying you can't tell me I'm a dummy sometimes) I'll let you vent, don't stab me in the back by running to everyone telling them lies about me. And most important just hang out.
We are not 16 years old. We are not in High School. Sure I really don't care who's doing what but if it matters to you, I'll listen.
I know I'm rambling, I'm tired, and I just hate it that the last 3 people that I thought was my friends ... we they were users, one wanted pills (that I don't have), one was stuck in High School ( at age 25) and one wanted to have sex with all of Jeremy's friends.
My best friend is over a thousand miles away. :( I never knew we could have been such great friends until high school was over. But she is the greatest friend I have. I am thankful for her and I love her very much. She will let me cry on her shoulder and then tell me she loves me but I'm an idiot and try it this way. She's never rude and doesn't gossip. I just wish we could be a little closer.

Baby Chickens

It was so beautiful yesterday. I got to take little man out to play in the yard. I had to run to the coop yesterday morning for feed and of course its that time again for the baby chicks to ready to go. So Jeremy and I are expanding our flock and we bought 10 rhode island red chicks. Kamden was so gentle with the babies I was really surprised. he kinda just pet the baby chick and looked at me to make sure that was ok.
The second picture is my favorite of all the ones I took yesterday.

17 Weeks....

Oh my 17 weeks now.  Baby is moving a lot! I'm so tired and HUNGRY all the time! I'm hoping that my sweetheart will take me to some sort of buffet this weekend! I hate being this hungry.

Kamden is just about 1 year old!  We are going to have a small party here the day before.  Hamburger's and hotdogs! I can't wait we already have quite a few people showing up.  I cannot believe he will be a year.  He's trying to walk he will stand up and just stand there.  Its like he's thinking about walking but just not for sure.

Jeremy and I are doing so well now.  He bought me flowers last week when I just felt really bad.  It just seems like we are ment for each other.  I don't know what changed but it did and it feels wonderful to be able to ask for a little help putting dishes away and he gets up and helps me.  He loves my cooking and tells me I'm beautiful everyday.

Adventures in Motherhood...

Well the news is official! Jeremy and I are expecting baby #2! We are both very excited.  The last few months have been very crazy. I get to go Monday for the ultrasound and see the doctor on Tuesday.  So we are going to posting a lot of news as we know.

I have been making bows.  I have a few people that order from me quite a bit.  I really enjoy making bows. It gives me something to do when Kamden is asleep.

Kamden is going to be a year old next month.  I am so excited planing his birthday party.  We are going to get him a sock monkey cake.  We are not going to do anything big.  Family and a few friends will be here.  We will be having it on the 24th of March around noon.

Merry Christmas! 

So now Kamden is 8 months old! He's crawling around trying to pull up and eats a lot!  I've been having a lot of headaches lately so I sleep when he sleeps! I always get a little stressed around the holidays.  Well I have been making bows and love it.  I also make small blankets for babies.  I'm not really trying to sale a lot but I do get a few people that do love my bows.  

I got back into my calligraphy and I am about to start drawing again.  I just would like to draw a portrait of Kamden.  

Well Christmas shopping has been done for a while.  Not looking forward to it.  More looking forward to New Years! Have a few friends over have a bon fire and rotel dip woohoo! And maybe True Blood marathon.  

Oh well I'm going for now it's Lasagna night!

Couponing is Rewarding!

I finally got my binder!!!! It's so pretty. I have most of my coupons in it. There isn't much more to add. I am really excited about trying to save money to help provide for my family.
We are now receiving the newspapers at the house on Sundays. Hopefully they will send me last Sunday's also like they said so I can get the good coupons I miss!

Thats the only thing I hate about our newspaper. You pay full price at the supermarket but you may not get all the coupons. However our Newspaper will send you more than one paper to your house if you request it!

So I'm set to go to WalMart and get some free toothpaste this week.

Lack of Sleep

No one told me motherhood was easy. I never expected to be. I hate the fact I am so far away from my parents. I hate the fact that all these people promised me they would help me if I needed it and when I need it they are not there!
I would drop everything to help a friend in need. I cannot count how many times a friend would say I need and I would give if I had it. Now when I say I need no one is around. Whats worse is the people that asked me over and over again for help that I helped, are no where to be found.
Kamden is doing great now! He was colic and he's teething, so that means constant crying. Jeremy couldn't help because he's trying to bring the money in and I won't ask him because he is so tired.
So where are they now? I have a messy house... Laundry to be done... Food that needs to be cooked?!?!?!
I offer a cookout and no one shows up? I guess they know I'm going to ask them to hold Kamden for me and talk to him. He is so cute why would you say no?
Needless to say my feelings have been hurt. Because I really thought I was starting a family and making REAL friends. Instead I have to deal with the people that use me again.
I hate this gypsy blood running through my veins. If I could take Kamden with me we would be on that road... It would be Jeremy, Kamden and I just going as fast as we can trying to make that money. Seeing the sunrise in Oklahoma and chasing it as far as we could to California.

I wouldn't trade Kamden for the world and I do miss it out there. I wish she would quit calling my name.